I’m lacking any sort of sense of direction. I thought I had it all figured out after Beijing, but oh boy. Where’s all that self-proclaimed wisdom - down the drain.
I’m lacking the motivation to do anything big time, I even don’t have the drive to go out and create. It’s just that I haven’t had any luck or fortune in this in a long time, I didn’t get any good news in months. I feel like I’ve shut down in many ways, only running on life support. I don’t want to overdramatize everything, I guess it just is like that when you rant. It’s dead weight, it’s slowing me down.
I need someone to kick my “behind” and give me guidance.
I’ve read and watched a lot about photography lately, tho it seems kind of far away at the moment, I still suck up everything decent I can get my hands on. Then I read this blog by Jeremy Cowart about you have to keep hustling to get pro.
It’s true. Though getting there still seems impossible. Is dreaming about having a studio like Chase Jarvis bad or even preposterous?
People just say, be motivated, dedicated and work hard for your goals and dreams. It’s always easy to say when you know how to do that. It’s like I feel like I chained myself to my own drooling misery.